Ca ne fait rien

We dined in a cozy room
She told me she would leave me soon.
And when I found no words to say
She took my hand without delay.

"Ca ne fait rien" she said
Gently stroking my hair.
"Ca ne fait rien" she said,
"L'amour n'est pas cher."

She said, "Je dois partir mentenant."
I've heard that one too much before.
She told me, "Je ne reste jamais"
And I said, "Please, you have to stay!"

I said to her "J'amrai t'embrace."
I raised to her my wine-filled glass
"Je me sens comme je suis perdu"
"I've never loved as I love you"

"Ca ne fait rien" she said
Gently stroking my hair.
"Ca ne fait rien" she said,
"L'amour n'est pas cher."

She told me "je ne peux pas encore."
I couldn't take it anymore.
She told me "je ne peux pas reste."
I said "I love you anyway."

She said to me "tu est tres jeune."
I didn't like her mellow tone.
And when she told me "A toute de suite".
I flung myself down at her feet

"Ca ne fait rien" she said
Knowing the dream I pursue.
"Ca ne fait rien" she said,
"La dinner etait delicieux."

She said to me "Tu as raison."
But when I looked up she was gone.
"A toi que je n'ai jamais vu."
"I've never loved as I love you"

(c) 2008 Chereal (Mikhail Temkine)

Four rules of dating that girl

I realized something today.

I've been thinking of asking this girl out for a long time now. And all would be good and would have gone according to plan. With one exception though: I had a plan. And I was getting nervous.

We, men, get nervous every time it comes to girls. Some say they have no trouble with women, but I bet you a million bucks they are still trembling there when they shift gears. "Can I have your number?" "Do you want to go out to dinner with me?" Some have done this thousands of times. Maybe those some don't fear rejection. Not me.

I always rehearse in front of a mirror. I always perform terabytes of calculations in my head before the next approach. But you know what I found? I end up throwing it all out, often my mind is busy "DELETING APPROACH SCRIPTS..." as I am right in front of her. In that moment it makes me think "This was so useless! It is so much easier to go with the flow!"

It kind of reminds me of that guy from Office Space who got hypnotized and he was able to ask a girl out the very next day. Why can I not do that? Why can I not convince myself that I am complete and perfect as I am? Why can't we all?

So I came to the true conclusion:

1. If you think you should ask the girl her number, that is EXACTLY what you should do.
2. If you think you should call the girl, that is EXACTLY what you should do.
3. If you think you should ask the girl out, that is EXACTLY what you should do.
4. If you think you should ask the girl to spend the rest of your life with you, that is EXACTLY what you should NOT do.

Not that you were going to to #4 anyway, right? :)

I feel happy now. I feel happy that I am going to do it. I feel happy that I am oblivious to her response if she says "no." Life goes on.

Like Mika said, "Live your live until love is found, 'cause love is gonna get you down!"

Mikhail Temkine, 2008